I'm f*cking pissed

[Amorok]

So, I have to go on leave starting tomorrow. I'm taking my boy, who is 2 1/2 to see his great-grandfather before Grandad starts his next round of chemo. I know it's the right thing to do but this is bullshit. Some of you know but I fucking hate going home on leave. Nothing good happened to me when I lived there and bad things continue to happen when I go home. Plus, I barely know my family and don't get along with them at all, but they constantly hassle me to go there. This is going to be a miserable week because:

1) Ulu and I have the week off next week. Instead of going out on the boat or riding, we're going to spend the week getting judged by my religious fanatic mother. We're spending our one vacation together doing things we hate, in a place we hate, with people we hate.

2)I'm missing two Patriot Guard Rides, one for a guy I knew. I feel terrible missing these, and everybody knows it.

3) I'm missing the monthly combat shoot at the local range for the second month in a row.

4) I need to help Ebbs move, but I'll be gone instead.

5) A friend needs help getting a tree out of his yard and he doesn't have a chainsaw, but I'll be gone.

6) It's going to cut into my rally money.

I'm really unhappy. Sorry for bitching but thanks for listening.